Last night I realized that my current favorite worship song requires only 4 chords on the guitar!!! Needless to say I spent some time worshipping and crying my eyes out because, let’s be honest… who doesn’t cry when Reckless Love comes on?!
(Unless of course you have defense mechanisms against the “feels” )
I stayed up late enough to find this out because I was having trouble sleeping. My heart was full and a bit broken at the same time (a common paradox for anyone in ministry.)
I was rejoicing in the fact that our oldest daughter and our niece were just baptized!
Praise the Lord!
On the other hand, I have had some very real, very constant let downs.
I’m not one to get crushed by the big stuff. It’s the little every day battles that eventually wear me down.
Last night was one of those nights. I was depleted.
So I went to my prayer room, plugged in my phone (that was almost dead from overuse playing meaningless game apps that brought me absolutely NO peace), and proceeded to search up guitar chords so I could get right in the presence of my Savior.
Amid my sobbing a certain line stuck out to me. “When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me. You have been so, so good to me.”
Instantly I remembered that this reckless love holds a unique answer to my heartache. Not only did Jesus pursue me in a way that could not be defeated even by my worst sins, but we are to pursue others the same.
It is by loving like Him that I walk in freedom.
I must love in a way that is unrestrained and is not limited by sin or emotions or even real, unjust events that occur. Absolutely NOTHING can take precedent over the love of Christ flowing unhindered through me and into this hurting world.
This is what God calls “good.”
Still, I don’t like it.
I don’t prefer to be “the one” who is “always” patient and feeling let down. I want relief. But I’ll tell you this:
The Lord has also shown me some deep truths about Him that I may have never learned if I were not experiencing what He goes through while loving us.
“When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me.”
And THAT is the real goal in life. To know God and be known by Him.
We do this by following Jesus.
Becoming Christlike is a journey that is full of pain at times. The reality is that we are going to have pain in this world regardless of our beliefs. But, when we are redeemed and have hope in the Lord, His Spirit can meet us right in the middle of despair and comfort can begin to flow in and from that wound.
When you deny the Lord access to these places, you deny Him the canvas upon which He would display your miracle.
You may not be able to handle the darkness but He can. Open up today. Call on Jesus who is your truest friend. Pour your heart out. You won’t regret it!
Maybe you’ll end up like me… starting with agony and ending in authentic smiles of gratitude and joy.
May He heal all your wounds, even now. Even today!