We don’t suffer from it but we often suffer because of it.
We are the ones who see the darkest parts of what depression does to a person. We have sat for hours in beds, on the floor & in bathtubs with it.
We have sat silent in the car waiting until it lifts so we can walk into the party with it, or even just into Target, and pretend to be normal for a little while.
“We are the most fragile and the most resilient warriors”
We have prayed under our breath with our hand on your head at night, crying out to God to save you from this evil of persistent hopelessness.
In the morning we launch into worship and more prayer. We cover you in prayer every day and many moments throughout the day.
We have ignored our own needs. At times we have told you exactly what we need.
Even when we are vulnerable enough to profess our human loneliness, we are not naive enough to think you will suddenly be capable of loving us amidst your pain.
We hate your depression, not you, but sometimes we take it out on you because it’s too hard to understand why you ignore us and don’t ever want to take us out anymore. Why you don’t seek after us.
We are the most fragile and the most resilient warriors.
We have talked you down from the unspeakable. Some of us have put our own lives in danger to save yours. To give you enough time to realize that life isn’t so bad and you are loved.
We want nothing in return, but we are in grave pain and feel like your depression might kill us at times.
But we will not give up. That was never an option.
The world might see us as the wives of depression, but we are wives of a unique breed of warriors.
We will not accept the devil’s definition of who we are or who you are. He is a liar and you will be free.
We know there is freedom.
We know that freedom is in Jesus, and we know He is faithful to complete the work He has begun. Both in you and in our marriage.
We will never leave you. Even on the days you feel the lowest, remember that we are for you.
Remember there are millions of us praying and fighting alongside you. We will never give up.
Neither should you.
NOTE: The images and words contained here are not meant to imply that all women whose spouses battle depression are being abused. There are varying degrees of depression, some accompanied by expressions of aggression. If you find yourself or a loved one in this situation, please reach out for help as soon as possible. It is not heroic to submit to abuse.